Thanks for the pain;

This morning i found out something really bad. It's killing me. ):

Is it a lie or is it true?
Is that a dream or is it real?

So many tears I've cried for you.I wish you where right by my side. I try to show how much I feel,I try to show how much I care.I'm trying to make things right.I feel love, I feel hate right by my side...Tears like rain fallin down, I Don`t know what to do.I'm surrounded by pain.All those things you've done to me I can't erase and I can't keep this inside.On the first day that I met you,I should have known to walk away. But instead I stood there waiting,hoping you would come around But you always found a way to let me down.I'm sick of feeling down. I got a feeling baby. I lose control,you cut my heart in pieces, you crush my soul.All the time that I cry that I die that I lost in you, I'd always trust in you, it's only love. Tell me you want me,you love me,you miss me .Tell me a lie.Is it surprise?I'm asking you to lie,Why should it be? You do it all the time And you make promises Or at least break them.You can never keep them.You drive me insane.Your lies in my brain.Trying to sort them out from the truth.But what's the use?It's getting hard for me to swallow.My stomach feels hollow And you made it that way.Not because of giddy butterflies,But because of filthy lies.I just want to cry.So now people stare And I try not to care But I can't! I just can't And you know what? This sucks. ): I can't even sleep when i found out this. Finally I can fall asleep at 8 am. This is tiring. I look around with an emotionless face,Thinking of all the pain I've had to grace,I can never get away.My memories were here to stay,I close my eyes,I hear my cries,I hear my sighs,But most of all I hear your lies. The tears I cry,They aren't fake.They're the ones you made fall,They're the tears I've always cried,Cried over you.Even when you had no clue.I waited every evening,Cried when you didn't show.I'd say "No, I know."Every time you made your excuses.The tears I cried,They meant the most.Even when they didn't show,They were there,Hidden by my smile.You broke me,Made me cry,Tears fell like rain.I'd try to hide them,Like I tried to hide my broken heart. I'm sick of getting hurt. My gosh. Release me from the nightmares and all of that which haunts me.. I can not take them any longer. I hate this pain, I hate this feeling.My life is always the same, will it ever change? Theirs never any happiness, I thought their was supposed to be a light?Once I stayed up all night, and cried until, I would hear sighs.On my mind, theirs so much their, I wonder if you’ll ever care.I wish you would see that I know your sorry,But the pain, you still don’t see, this pain feeds off of me,Everyday, every night. What I feel is no surprise.All the great times I had with you, But the bad times, came so true,Could you ever see the pain I was hiding,Even though its not my fault for trying.

Did you want to tear my heart in half?

Like this? ):

Ps: Can you dont break a heart that is already broken anymore? ):


Yvonneyiizy ):