Betrayer?

Friends are supposed to be trusted. But who knew that some friends just can't be trusted?

It's freaking 4 a.m and I can hardly sleep. Why? Because all in my mind is betrayers. I hate betrayer.. well.. who doesnt? I hope my close friends aren't betrayers. I don't want to find out that my close friends are betraying me. Please don't use me when i really treat you as my best friends. If I find out you're betraying me, I'm sorry but i have to hate you. Seriously, I'm totally lost. I don't even know who to trust anymore. For this moment.. I only trust myself. Well.. I'm hurt. :( Why so many peoples love to hurt me ? Why? It is not fair I have to live this way. My heart is broken into a thousand pieces. My feeling is now at a dead end. I don't know who to trust right now. I don't think I have a friend now. I feel damn lonely and confuse. Now that you got your wish do you still think you made the right choice? I guess you're not the same any more but what happened to before?Did you ever really care? Did you ever really dare?You thought it was a game,so with you lays the blame. You say you're my friend But you stab my back.You tell me you're "depressed" and then you go and cry on my shoulder.When I need your help,you turn away.You stab my back. I thought your kindness would last. But now, I feel so used. Because when I think of the past, I thought you'd never give my heart a bruise. Why did I ever rely on a word you said? What did I ever do to deserve this pain? I've trusted you but you've hurt me instead and I don't know if I could believe you again.
We love each other.We stood by each other.We had a lot of good times and some what bad times. I thought we could face anything together that's until you lie to me..I can forgive you for hurting me.But I can't forgive you for lying THIS MUCH to me.
Lies are all around me.I see no point, I see no end.Those are my enemies, who I think are friends. I see and hear it, find it hard to believe. They'll think I don't know or wont find out But surely I do so without a doubt.

People who backstab, people who betray. I hope you know that and be honest and tell me the truth. I will forgive and forget if you do so. I'm serious. I don't want to lose a friend like you. I hope you don't backstab or betray anyone. :(

Who is fake? Who is true?

I Don't Know.

Once again, I hate my life.

I wish I could end my life without any doubt. :(

I can't stand it anymore.

Bye friends. Thats all I can say. It's your choice whether you want to tell me the truth. I hope you do so that I may forgive you. Please. :(

Night,

yvonneyiizy.